Random thoughts about everything and nothing..

Just because you write notes on facebook doesn't mean you're a writer..

Just because you have a blog doesn't make you a writer either..

Just because you published several books, doesn't mean you're a writer either.. Most leaders of the world today published books, some of them didn't even read them..

Being a world leader today is actually being a salesman.. You need to sell at a state level what your country produces: weapons, aircrafts, nuclear plants, oil exploration sites, and the list is long.. It would be better if they had a business experience rather than politics.. Well in that matter, Lebanese are cutting edge, if you want to become a prime minister, just be a millionaire businessman.. It doesn't mean that you would actually have enough money to buy the post, but you'd have a shot at it..

Speaking of Lebanese, just because you say "hi, kifak, ça va?" doesn't make you trilingual.. But I'll give you the credit for knowing how to sell yourself.. (in the good sell, as in market your skills, not in prostitution way)..

Prostitution.. is to get favors (money, a job, a phone, and sometimes even sillier things) in exchange of sexual services.. Unfortunately, some girls think that they managed to get what they want due to their "femininity"..

Femininity is to actually get what you want without having to perform a blowjob..

A blow job cost Dominique Straus Khan the head of FMI, and potentially his chances at becoming a president of France.. Dommage.. It was just another example of how some men are controlled by their "zizi" as the french call it.. Apparently soon a new tv show called "the zizi effect", in comparison to "Al jazeera effect"..

Just because Al Jazeera said it (and other media), doesn't make it true.. But when the national TV (in some friendly countries) says it, then it's definitely not true..

True.. truth is the version you choose to believe in.. there are facts.. it's different.. Truth is a metaphysical philosophical concept than can be found on so many levels.. However if you believe that you can find the truth on TV, or in the decision of an International Court, then you'll be disapponited..

Disappointment, is a very strong weapon.. You can use it to request a better performance from people you have authority on.. And you can use it as an excuse to lay in bed and give up in front of people who have authority on you..

Depression.. became a common word, and a common feeling.. You easily say that you're depressed, that you're down.. Very few know what it really feels like to hit rock bottom..

Just because you have suicidal thoughts, doesn't mean you're down either.. Consider it as part of your daily creativity, your longing for tragedy, and then DO NOT JUMP in front of the train, just get on it, and reach your destination..

Destination is as vague as home.. GPS won't help you find either..

GPS.. this great tool, yet very abusive.. you can ctually be tracked anywhere you are, anytime.. And now the new gadget is to actually allow Facebook, and friends to check you into places where you are.. Considering that half of your facebook friends are not really your friends, I don't see how some people are not revolted by this invasion of privacy... I'm referring to those who enjoy the gadget and didn't deactivate it..

But I learnt recently that common sense is not as common as we'd like to think.. Didn't you ever have this question: "how the hell is this person thinking?".. Well I'm sure some people say that about you too.. But still my ego persuades me that my logic is very logical..

Just because your ego makes you think you're right, doesn't mean you have to go in endless arguing with those who are not as enlightened as you.. Sometimes it's good to stick to social code of conduct and just live and let live..

As for the social code of conduct, I still didn't find the manual, but some people seem to know a lot about it.. Maybe it's smart to just do what they do.. Unless if you don't care, which is a relief in most of the times.. Others will say you're a weirdo, but noone will expect much from you either.. it keeps the pressure off..

And one last thing, if you have a zillion friend online, if you tweet more than 50 times per day, if you change your status on Facebook at least 3 times per day, and if you think that people love you just because they press like when you say "I'm bored".. Then you should seriously disconnect, and start living real life..

رحل

أكتب وأمحي

أكتب وأمحي

ولا أجد ما أريد أن أقوله.. لك

هكذا كنا وهكذا بقينا

كلما أردت أن أقول لك ما أريد قوله

ضعت في معاجمي وهربت مني الكلمات

نعم، هي قلة شجاعة مع القليل من إنعدام الثقة

وأنت الذي كنت تتهمني بالثقة المفرطة

ثقة ترعب الرجال وتبعدهم على حد قولك

أعود لأمحي

نهائياً..

فأنت لم تعد هنا لتسمع..

حداد

أعلنت الحدادعلى جميع من ماتوا منذ بداية العام..

على من أحرقوا أنفسهم يأسا فأشعلوا أمة بالأمل..

على من قُتلوا من أجل الثورة ضد أنظمة أكل عليها الدهر..

و على من ماتوا أيضاً دفاعاً عن الأنظمة ذاتها..

قد يرى البعض في مساواتي للطرفين معاداةً للثورة و الحرية و ربما حنيناً للنظام السابق..

لكم حرية التفكير و التفسير و لي حرية مساواة الجميع أمام الموت..

أعلنت الحداد على من ماتوا ضحايا زلزال أو تسونامي أو انهيار ثلجي..

و على من نجوا ليموتوا جراء إشعاع نووي..

و من نجوا من كل ما سبق ليموتوا بسكتة قلبية..

أعلنت الحداد على أطفال ماتت تسمماً..

و أمهات ماتت أثناء الولادة..

و أطفال ماتت قبل أن تولد..

في يومنا هذا ما زال هناك أناس يموتون من عضة برغشة أو تسمم غذائي في حين نزرع روايا اصطناعية في بلدان أخرى..

أعلنت الحداد على من يموتون منذ سنين من الجوع..

في حين يموت آخرون من السمنة..

و آخرون يموتون حرقاً لأنهم يطالبون بتنحي رئيس لم يربح الإنتخابات..

أعلنت الحداد على أولئك الذين يموتون في اعتداءات انتحارية يومياً..

أعلنت الحداد لأننا اعتدنا على موتهم..

يومياً..نعدّهم بالعشرات..

ثم ننهي نهارنا بحصيلة قتلى اليوم..

و تمر الحصيلة كما تمر نشرة الطقس في نهاية النشرة..

مرور الكرام..

أعلنت الحداد على أولئك الذين لا يساوي مئة قتيل منهم قتيلاً واحداً من الطرف الآخر..

بحكم موقعهم من الفاصل..

و على أولئك الذين قرر البعض تناسيهم لأن قضيتهم تخضع لأجندة أجنبية..

و كأن المهزلة التي نعيشها اليوم هي سيادة مستقلة..

أعلنت الحداد على أولئك الذين تقولون أنهم "يستحقون الموت"..

و الموت يَستحق و لا يُستحق..

يوم المرأة

عزيزي وعزيزتي المؤمنون بضرورة إلغاء يوم المرأة العالمي لإستبداله بواجب إحترام المرأة كل يوم من أيام السنة..

شكراً لنيتكم الصافية وتفاؤلكم كي لا أصفه بالسذاجة!

للأسف احترامكم الشخصي للمرأة ليس واقعاً عاماً يسهل عيشه وتطبيقه كل يوم بهذه السهولة التي تصفونها .. الواقع العام اليوم هو إمرأة قد تتقاضى أجراً مساوياً للرجل في بلدانٍ نادرة وبعيدة، ولكن معظم الوقت ما زالت تتقاضى أقل من الرجل..

في أحسن حالاتها هي رئيسة للجمهورية في البرازيل وهيلاري كلينتون في الولايات المتحدة أو انجلا ميركل في ألمانيا ، وغيرهن في بلدانٍ تعاني بالرغم من ذلك من تمييز بين المرأة والرجل..

ولكن في معظم حالاتها ما زالت وراء الرجل العظيم، وبعيدة جداً من أن تكون بجانبه..

لا زالت لا تملك حق إختيار زوجها أو عدم الزواج في عددٍ كبيرٍ من الدول..

ما زالت تعاني من العنف تجاهها بالرغم من ظاهرة النساء اللواتي تعنفن الرجال..

مازلت تغتصب بشكل متكرر في بعض دول أفريقيا.. إغتصاب يعد كفعل حرب! وتنتهي مغتصبةً مطلقة مرميةً في الشارع لأن زوجها لم يعد يحتمل فكرة إنتهاك شرفه.. بتعبير آخر لم تعد صالحة للعمل وتأمين الدخل بسبب صحتها المتدهورة .

وما زالت النساء تموت يومياً بسبب العنف المنزلي..

وما زالت تنعت بالعاهرات إذا عبرت عن رأي مخالف للدين والعادات والتقاليد..

هل تنعت أنت عزيزي بالعهر إذا قررت أن تنادي بالحرية الجنسية؟ في أسوأ الحالات تدعو لك أمك بأن يهديك الله ويستر عليك..

نعم.. هو يومٌ من أصل 365 يشعركم أنتم بالذنب لقلته.. فشكراً لكم! ولكنه يمر عل العديد مرور الكرام، والأسوأ أنه يمر على البعض (الكثيرين) بسخرية وإستهزاء..

أنتم وذنبكم لا تمثلون واقع المرأة إليوم، ولا تغيرون أبعد من محيطكم إذا غيرتم!

فشكراً لكم لترك يوم المرأة بحاله.. فهذا كل ما تملكه اليوم، إذا ملكته..

My personal monologue

Once upon time, I was arrogant enough to believe that I understand human being.. That was very long time ago.. The more I live the more people confuse me.. The more I see the more things make less sense, that is if they ever made sense in the first place..

Human vanity, selfishness and arrogance remain one of the main things that exhaust me. And yes I chose the word "exhaust". It is exhausting to argue with people who are arrogant enough to consider that they know everything, and that you, poor little creature who doesn't get things, are just so cute when you think you know.. I'm sick as well of tolerent people who, by their tolerence, insinuate that in fact they are right, you are definitely wrong, but they are graceful enough to allow you freedom of opinion.. Well THANK YOU very much..

I'm also sick of people who pretend that they accomplished things by taking credit for other people's work. Sick of people who argue back and forth for hours without ever giving you the time to finish a sentence, thinking that they know ahead what you're going to say. To sum it up, I'm bored of people going into endless monologues about themselves, about life, about you, about me,..

I'm tired of people who have no purpose in life as much as I am tired of those who have plenty of purposes. Of those who believe in God as much as of those who don't. Those who complain about everything, and those who are satisfied with everything and anything. Those who are always on the opposition side, and those who run!

I'm sick of people who never change anything, and those who change everything without knowing what they want to change to..

I'm tired of people falling back in the same traps that led them to wars not so long ago, and tired of those who remained silent for years ruled by tyrants.. I'm tired as well of having to be hypocrite, because you should feel, think and be compliant with certain standards, without every having a manual for appropriate social behavior.. I'm just sick, like every now and then, of social obligations: having to be polite, not beating people up when you find them stupid, forcing yourself to accept others' ideas without judging them, being neutral and "objective".. being good..

And the list goes on..

Everything is just moving very fast, and you no longer have the luxury to take a pause to figure it out, unless if you really want to quit it all..

From Libya

A testimonial of a Libyan citizen near Tripoli - unedited:



I live close to Tripoli and a citizen..wondering how after all what he is doing a human being can still be for..I had hope in the "Libya of tomorrow" as they called it a lot of my generation..the ones he named "the generation of anger", sarcastically of course. This generation knows him only and his cruelty and tactiques to control spreading fear, avidity, doubt..as he is doing even more these two day..I had hope in gradual change like a lot of Libyans who are pacific by nature..I worked for projects and wanted to see the end of the tunnel even if apart of some meager crumbles of positive points we clunched to..the corruption was/still is eating the country..corruption from inside yes but internationally as well..the government bought European countries...America ..Big "Democracies" lecture makers..This way to delaying ...not thinking but wondering who is going to be the next one to deal with for business and oil even on coarps of innocent people ..as usual..as usual.




The situation?


Isolation..even more..mobile connections are jammed smses randomly reach or not ..but threatening SMS are spread..others are buying ..credit is offered to corrupt..so the situation is quite..we never had bombarding..the word used in Arabic is wrong..what may have happened is shootings from a helicopter as friends saw shot holes on the top of buildings..some of the weaponds are heavy ones as you can hear in some of the videos u have already (the one at night in tripoli city)


Today people are the four options you proposed and persisting persisting persisting ..because we all know..that he never threats in the air..and he never had mercy..


Expats at this point are not worth more than libyans before the eyes of the mercenaries..so they are of course scared and shocked..


For the question..yes, some are still afraid and unsecure..the net, phone..all is filtered and filed for future repressions as usual..


But...a big percentage stopped being afraid and talk freely on the phone..nearly..


The Eastern area is all free..the Western as well..only Tripoli and it's surrounding cities are still oppressed..three military bases surround them preventing, for the moment, the ones from outside to go in with their weaponds and help the ones inside who have only their bare hands to fight militias who don't think twice before shooting..our youth isn't afraid..they do not want to die and desapear uselessly as it already and is happening..They are isolated...but really angry offended in their deepest pride..we have always been offended and reduced swallowing and swallowing in the name of peace and hope..enough

زبد

ترميني تنهيدةً في بحر الغربة
لأضيع سدىً... كزبد البحر!
يحملني الموج عالياً أحياناً
و لكن على أقدام الصخور
دائماً أنتهي
زبداً..


بين المد و الجزر
أتمرجح بين الأمل و الخيبة..
و خيبتي أنني ما زلت أتأمل
و أنت.. أنت كالأمواج تتقاذفني
كمترو هذه المدينة
يلقفني من محطة إلى محطة
لأذوب على الأرصفة
زبداً..