12.08.2011

من العدم وإلى العدم تعود

للخريف في باريس هذه القدرة على إيقاظ كافة حواسك.. يخلق منك دوامة ويرميك فيها، مع أوراق الشجر المتساقطة.. فتطفو في العدم، غير آبه للكآبة المقبلة.. مستسلماً أمام هذه الطبيعة التي تتعرّى بأنوثة ليليت، وقسوتها...

تتشقلب مشاعرك كالبهلوان، تارة تريد القفز من أعلى الجبال من شدة النشوة.. وتارة من شدة اليأس.. تحديداً كما تتشقلب المشاهد حولك من كافة مشتقات الأصفر والأرجواني، إلى كافة مشتقات الرمادي.. الرمادي فقط، حتى الأبنية رمادي، وجوه الناس رمادية.. وأنت نفسك، كقط الجار الرمادي، لا تنشد سوى الجلوس على كنبتك أمام النافذة تنظر إلى التلاميذ يجرّون أنفسهم جرّا إلى المدارس.. الموظفون متلحفون.. مشهد مثير من شدة التناقض بين الطبيعة التي تخلد إلى النوم، وأنت وجنسك تحاولون عبثاً أن تواصلوا الحياة.. كم كانت لتكون الحياة أجمل لو كنّا دببة.. شتاء كامل من النوم.. لا ثلج ولا برد ولا سماوات ملبّدة..

لم أؤمن يوماً أن الإنسان هو أذكى المخلوقات.. أذكاها اليوم هي الطيور المهاجرة.. تهرب في الوقت المناسب من هذا الجنون الذي يجرّك نحو اللا شيء.. نحو اللحظات التي تتوقف دهراً، نحو العبث، شعورك بأن أيامك تمضي عبثاً، أن وجودك أة عدمه لا يعلو أهمية عن تلك الورقة التي تتطاير أمامك.. نحو الصراخ، الصراخ كي تكسر هذا السكون.. فالخريف كالأفلام الصامتة.. ربما لأنك قابع خلف النافذة.. وربما لأن هيبة الموت تفرض سكوناً لا تقوى على كسره.

للخريف هذه القدرة على جعلك تدرك أنها النهاية، لكنّك تفتن بها، أنت الذي دائماً تخشى النهايات.. تقبل نحوها.. وبكامل الخنوع وبكامل التلاشي... تقفز في العدم...

12.06.2011

It's more than just a status!

You're really proud of all that? This is one of the question that cross my mind when I read some statuses on FB. The problem is I think that some people repost them without even considering what it really means, and what it really says. or at least I hope so. I think in this case, ignorance can be more relieving than the thought that some people would consciously mean every word they're saying on FB, and intentionally indulging themselves in sexism, racism, arrogance and selfishness.

One of the recent feminin statuses that are spreading is the following:

"Yes, I'm a female. I push doors that clearly say PULL. I laugh harder when I try to explain why I'm laughing. I walk into a room and forget why I was there. I count on my fingers. I hide pain from my loved ones. I say it is a long story, when it really is not, just to get out of having to tell it. I cry a lot more than you think I do. I care about people who don't care about me. I am strong because I have to be, not because I want to be. I listen to you, even when you don't listen to me. And a hug will always help. Yes, I am a WOMAN!!!!! Re-post if you're a lady and proud of it !"

Laughing harder when you try to explain why you're laughing: really?! Being a woman means that you do that?

Walking into a room and forgeting why you were there is usually a sign of a distracted mind which could mean that you're overloaded and stressed, or could be a sign of alzheimer. If it happens so often, go to a doctor.

You count on your fingers: I'm becoming hopeless here. SERIOUSLY? And all the other who are good mathematicians and accountants and scientists, are less of a woman because they're actually not counting on their fingers, and trying to imitate men? Which leads to the question, so you truly believe that no man ever uses his fingers to count on? How is that relevant to being a woman and specific to your gender?

I can go down the list one by one, but I think the point is clear so far. You reposted it, because you are proud of being a woman, but everything this status says before reaching the "yes I am a woman" is sexist, despising towards women, stereotyping them as inferior creatures who are there to listen to the male, and be clumsy the rest of the time, which is ok, as long as you're fulfilling the holy duty of ebing there for your man!

Another status that provoked my feminist side:

"Oh you ask....do I work? Uh yes, 24 hours a day...I am a Mum! I am an alarm clock, a cook, a maid, a teacher, a nanny, a nurse, a taxi, a handyman, a security officer, a photograph er, a counsellor , a jungle gym and a comforter. I don't get holidays, sick pay or days off. I work through the day and night, and am on call 24 hours and get paid with hugs and kisses ♥ Post if you are a proud Mother! ♥"

I used to say that I'm not a feminist, that I don't understand this fight against men. I discovered that the fight is first against women. We are our kind's worst ennemy. We are the one spreading the stereotype that we are fragile, weak and mostly stupid, without even realising the danger of stereotypes.

There are other statuses on FB of course, but two samples are enough for now.